🔗 Share this article Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches It was a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting. The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches. This condition often start with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists up to three hours. About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods. What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free. Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home. Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital. Still, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility. Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads. Historical healing texts suggest bizarre treatments for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures. It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”. Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this. In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered. Despite such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms. Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies. A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased. National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals. But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals. The official guidance need updating to reflect a